The lead up to Christmas was hard without Cash….I made some Christmas Clothes for the other Grandies, but not knowing his size or whether they would be passed on I didn’t make any for him. It saddened me greatly. I went with Amy and Connor (Cash’s cousins) to have a photo with Santa and it was very special, but again I thought of my little Gingernut Biscuit and felt sad that I couldn’t see his photo with Santa, or even know if he had one taken. A very difficult time of year.

Christmas Day 2016 was busy…it needed to be…we started the day going to a motorcycle friend of ours, Bully, for an open house breakfast, then off to see Vince’s family who were all having lunch at his Sister Bev’s. It is also the first year without his Mum, so again a difficult time for the Partridge family too. Next we stopped off at Peasham Street Dog Beach, where Kyle’s ashes are and spent some time reflecting and connecting. It was a beautiful view, but heartbreaking that I can’t be with my son in the physical sense.

 

We did intend to also go up to Gigiganup to the Crash Site, but there simply wasn’t enough time. We went up a few days later (27.12.16) and put some flowers there.

Then home to start cooking the turkey for Neena and the Grandies to come for Dinner.  Yee was working away so we had an early Christmas before he left. We normally do a lunch, but we had changed it to a dinner to accommodate Cash’s Mum – who had her own family lunch to go to. In the end it didn’t matter as obviously we didn’t get to see Cash on Christmas day, despite contact attempts by Neena. We have no way of knowing if he got his presents or not, as no communication is coming from his Mum. Karma will come, but it doesn’t ease the sadness of not seeing Cash celebrate his first Christmas.

  

Vince got a playstation, I got a watch and the kids got loads of toys! Christina organised a small gift for me from Kyle, since he can’t be here. The bean is growing well.

We made the best of a very difficult time of year….who knows what next Christmas will be like.