A kick in the bum from Kyle…he wants me to ride!

The soul connection between my son and myself when he was here on earth was always strong and now he’s in spirit, that connection remains. He sends me messages and lets me know he’s around me, watching out. He has been giving me a kick in the bum lately, I get the strong feeling that he’s staying “enough now Mum, its time to join the living again”. He knows that I will never get over losing him, that I miss him every single day, and the hole in my heart can never heal….but he doesn’t want me to be so miserable that I can’t enjoy life and keep living mine. I know that, I’ve always known that from the moment he died, but now I’m feeling pushed to move forwards, he is slowly lifting the shroud of misery from me and letting the light come back in.

In the past couple of weeks I have felt genuine joy and happiness, not the fleeting moments that I’ve had over the last year, or the Oscar performances I have put on for others comfort at great emotional drain to myself….but genuine and sustained for the first time in ages. It’s also the first time I have been able to feel genuine excitement, at the pending birth of my new Granddaughter coming and at the prospect of learning to ride a motorbike for myself.

Kyle has been pushing the latter, to the point of actually helping me chose the right bike….he made it very obvious when his ring that I wear on a chain around my neck fell out from underneath my shirt and hit the tank of a lowered Kawasaki Z250SL….I know it’s not a Harley, which is what he loved…but he also knows I’m not big enough to handle a Harley, and I know he will be looking after me.

You can read about the arrival of my little BABYCAKES…..at our website, www.2upadventures.com