After my meeting at Pinnaroo today I took a trip up to Kyle’s Crash Site on Lancewood Ave in Gigiganup. I go there pretty regularly to connect at the place where he was last alive and put fresh flowers, usually yellow ones there. Today was a bit different, it was my first time on my own. It’s almost two years since he died, and this is the first time. It felt a bit strange but also more private. I talked to him about his birthday, my plans to fly to Darwin to reconnect with places from his childhood as my way of celebrating his birthday, as well as catching up with family. I also told him about the events of this morning and how I hoped he would approve.

I also noticed that the tree I cut down (the one we thought killed him) is regenerating and growing back. I spent some time apologising to it, explaining I had been in a very bad place at the time and I even gave it some Reiki to help it grow strong again. I think it will forgive me, I was a mother in deep, deep grief. Of course it’s not the trees fault, but I felt like I had to do something at the time. I am glad it’s growing back and I didn’t actually end up killing it.

I also noticed today, for the first time since the new cross was put up, that the engraving is incorrect, it has the 28th instead of the 23rd November as his birthday. When Aunty Jack came down this was an error she made, but got a replacement done. It looks like somehow she got them mixed up again, and the incorrect one got put on the cross instead. I will need to get that sorted. It’s funny that this is the first time I noticed it!

Driving out here I can see more and more subdivisions encroaching towards the site. I don’t know for how much longer I will be able to gain access to this site, before it gets sold off. That’s another reason I want to sort something out at Pinnaroo. It really is very tranquil out here.

Whilst I was out here I saw the remains of a big kangaroo that was killed here a while ago, just bones now, all bleached from the sun. It is a strange link to the site we have picked out for Kyle at Pinnaroo, seeing all those kangaroos healthy, happy and lazing around.